Mariah Carey revealed that she has Bipolar II disorder a couple months ago and how she had trouble accepting her condition.

“Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me,” she said. “It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn’t do that anymore. I sought and received treatment, I put positive people around me and I got back to doing what I love — writing songs and making music.”

She says being biracial impacted her childhood more than she knew. Carey remembered of a time her friend cried when seeing her father because she had never seen a Black person before. “I had to go through so much in my childhood just to feel accepted and feel worthy of existing on Earth because I felt so different from everybody else growing up, because I was biracial, because I was so ambiguous-looking and because we didn’t have the money to escape whatever the everyday realities of life were.”

Mariah added on that her sister was arrested multiple times for prostitution, with Carey having to pay for her to get out.